Finally Back Home...Oh No Wait Gone Again

So I had every intention of coming home from a crazy long week and staying here in Kitchener until I go home for a shopping trip/my birthday Nov 28. Well that was blown out of the water when we were offered a hotel room for free at the Great Wolf Lodge. Kyle's parents were nice enough to offer that to us, which was quickly accepted as we didn't have much of an anniversary. So how was the rest of my week at Mamaz? Oh boy, lets just say I can see why people quit personal assistant jobs. All week I was to work for Mamaz, without pay of course though there was promise of a dress up Ariel doll (we never did find it by the end of the week so I got a new computer chair). So in the course of my 10 day stay I was at the dentist 3 times (yep I didn't know they let you go there that often either). During the day while there was no calls for sample pick ups I was incharge of making Mamaz house organized and look nice (she said it hadn't been nicely organized since I left 2 years ago). She was in the middle of redoing the basement which used to look pretty dank with dark brown panneling and odds and ends furniture. So I had to build things and work on the computer to get it running smoothly. Then when Mamaz got a call I went for a ride and helped carry samples and I would have liked to pack for shipping but there was bubble wrap and I needed a break. Mamaz works for a lab that tests stuff, like lead in paint on a buildings wall and ecoli in water, so major hand washing after work. We had a girls night Thursday as Dad left to go hunting with Uncle Dave (Dad got a 9 point Buck, huuzah), so we watched The Love Guru and ate junk. I will post pics of the basement when I get around to putting them on my computer.

My Week Away

So I am currently at my parents, Kyle gave Sugar and I the boot and went back to Kitchener to work and do what ever stupid thing it is guys do when the wife isn't around (Grandma Barton says watch movies and eat pizza pie). Anyways we haven't done much, while Kyle was here we went shopping over the river, which ended quickly when we got a call saying Grandma Landon wasn't doing well in the hospital. She has been there for 2 weeks now and has developed the super bug that is apparently going through the hospital here (it is GNGH need I say more?). Mamaz isn't able to go into the hospital due to the medicine she is on and I really don't enjoy going in the hospital so we stand out side Grandma's window and talk with her during visiting hours....this gets very cold at night. On our 2nd anniversary Kyle and I went to the dentist for a cleaning, the temp filling that the oral surgeon gave me didn't stand up to such a cleaning so lucky I am here for the week so that the dentist can fix that with a permanent filling. We each had 2 cavities.....not surprising for Kyle who loves candy but very much so for me who never has cavities. Anyways not much else happening here, just hanging out and freezing my butt off in this drafty house....I don't know how I lived here for 19 years with out catching pneumonia. I have been here since Friday night and I can already feel a cold coming on. Hopefully one of these days I will make it back home and be able to go back to church as I cannot remember the last time I went in Kitchener.

Plum Squares

Kyle's Opa owned his own bakery when he was young and still alive, and from the few things that have eaten that had been made using his old recipes he was very talented and had many great snacks. My favourite is Plum Squares, we have them at every big family meal. This Thanksgiving though we will be with my family and I shall miss those Plum Squares. However I thought that maybe I could share something from my new family with my old family (you know the whole divorced parents scenario I proposed....if not see below), so I started my adventure in creating Opa's Plum Squares this morning. How am I on here so early with a recipe that is so demanding of time? Well that is simple I live in an apartment and never bake, so I figured I would have everything I needed. WRONG. I am making a bakery recipe where they seem to have an unlimited amount of all supplies....like several pounds of flour.....I on the other hand had half a small bag.....so stupid I never look at recipes before starting and that is sad. So now I have to choose to either let what I have stand until Kyle gets home and buys flour or walk down to the store and get flour....I don't really want to buy flour, why couldn't it be something lighter and easier for me to carry.....like I forgot the lemon or something that would be so easy. Oh well I shall post at the end of the weekend when I get home as to how the plum squares turned out.

My Weekend The Story

So I spent the weekend at my in laws house. I got to thinking, which isn't a surprise to anyone, that having in laws and parent is alot like having divorced parents. My parents aren't divorced so this is pretty much assumption based on what I see divorced parents like on TV. So I got the the in laws Friday night, where I was promised pizza and received an offer of potato leek soup, just as it seems that one parent always promises in an attempt to one up the other parent but in the end doesn't deliver. So I didn't eat, the next morning I got up to find the house empty and was uncomfortable with digging through the cupboards looking for food, though when Kyle helped I didn't find a think I liked as they have no clue of my taste (based on that I would say the in laws are the father of the divorced parents, as the fathers always work and never really have a clue what the children like). So Mamaz calls me and asks if I might "come out to play" as she put it, but I had to ask permission before I could answer. Stupid parents not talking to each other making me all uncomfortable in the fact that I now have to choose who to be with. So I was allowed and she came and picked me up, coming in for a quick hello and a "I will have her back by dinner". Once in the car I was asked "what have they fed you?" which was followed by a nothing, I am starved. So Mamaz did what every parent looking to please the child does, we hit McDonald's for a happy meal (yes in my long weekend I suckered 2 people into taking me to McD's for food, haha I am good). Before she returned me home, before dinner as promised, she had to spoil the meal with the other parent, so a quick stop at DQ was needed, where I was allowed to get anything I wanted. I was dropped off in the drive way and promised a call the next day. When I went inside I was greeted at the door with a "Did she feed you or no?", I laughed as the whole idea of divorced parents came into my head just then. That question was answered with a yes, but I was quickly asked "Are you sure she fed you?", like I would lie about being fed, I was throwing it in every ones face that I got a happy meal. The men folk went off to church and I was left to watch a movie that I didn't want to see with my mother in law, who fell asleep not too far in and left me alone with I think the stupidest movie I have ever seen. Sunday Mamaz called to let me know that I could come over and help her organize the basement and I made it known that I was indeed going over there, but the in laws kept me busy till 8 o'clock and then let me go knowing it was too late in the day to do anything, however that backfired when Mamaz suggested we have a family night with what time we had and we all snuggled and watched Iron Man, hmmmm happy meal and a good movie.....no having to deliberate on who I would choose to live with in the custody battle!

Anyways that was my weekend, it was boring as you could tell by the large story I made about the divorced parents. But it does feel that way at times, like when you have to pick what you want to do (one over the other), and when I was asked this weekend what family I would spend Christmas with....yeah I hate that. I wish sometimes I would have thought ahead enough to know that my favorite holiday would be ruined with having to choose and running all over Niagara to try to please everyone in 1 day. Oh well can't do much about that now....though I hear that Disney World is nice that time of year.....no I couldn't do that, could I?

Bad Day, But Not the Worst

So today was the second half of the dental surgery, or the end of the original that just couldn't get finished. So I was feeling conflicted, happy that this was it but upset and worried because last time I got the needle 4 times (and it hurts ALOT). Kyle promised me a McDonald's hamburger when it was all over as a way for me to get through the needles (only got 2 this time), however I think I shall need a bigger reward next time. Yes that's right next time. I wasn't in the chair 5mins when the dentist says "I think you will need surgical intervention". Oh boy, that sounded like all kinds of fun. Of course he tells me this as he is sticking me with a needle, yeah that made that news better. So as I drifted in and out of feeling, listening to the dentist and other lady person ask "are you going to be ok" I could only think how in the world could it get worse...but then it did. I came back feeling a bit better, as now I was frozen and not feeling much of anything in the head (I am a lightweight and I don't think he realized that, I still have impaired function). Anyways the worse part, how exactly the "surgical intervention" will work....oh boy thinking about it I am feeling dizzy. I will share but be warned that it is nasty.

They will hold my top lip back as the infection is now resting where the gum meets the nose on the inside, and will proceed to cut out the gums and open the bone to clean it out...."but don't worry we will be able to save the teeth" he says, oh that's a relief all that mattered was saving my teeth. Gah I was thinking more like hey hows about not ripping part of my face off, I seen that movie I don't want to be John Travolta OR Nicolas Cage....I think that was about the time that I was loosing feeling again, this time they asked if my husband had brought me as he would need to come in and hear what the plan was going to be, at least that's what they told me, I think it was more a matter of the fact I kept getting white and wilty.

So I have 3 hard months of bad dreams and thinking about what is going to happen to me and what my face will feel like and look like afterwards. I wish that people knew what was good for me, that would be to keep me out of the loop with my own medical information. I must be off now as this has taken an hour and several stop and starts as my head aches and my eyes and brain seem to be badly effected by the freezing.

2 Years

So as of October 1st it will have been 2 years since Kyle and I moved into our apartment, though honestly I didn't move in until October 21st, though all my stuff was moved in with Kyle's stuff in order to make it one clean move, as Niagara is a long way to drive 2 times to move. Today being the last day of the month it is the "big clean" day. I casually clean most days but I save the big one for the last day of the month. I have a long list of things I do, including ironing and changing sheets and flipping the mattress (you know things that don't need to be done on a daily or weekly basis). So this was the perfect time to take some pictures and see the difference 2 years makes.

October 1st 2006 - The Day We Moved In

October 1st 2008 - Present Day

My choice of home decor has changed alot, from a plastic dollar store shower curtain for a patio door covering to a .... well a more expensive shower curtain that compliments the colors in our living room. And I can admit that the present pics look alot better since the first ones were taken by Mamaz with a disposable camera, and the present ones were taken with my 7 mega pixel digital camera.

Thoughts Before Sleep

So at times I amuse myself, however at night time I do not amuse myself as I lay in bed ready for sleep but my brain doesn't stop. So here is what can go through my mind before sleep comes.

Is the door locked, because someone could break in. If they did where would I hide? I argue the pros and cons of each spot till I realize what would I save if I had to save something? It would be a different answer if the apartment was on fire....then what? I would jump out the window. How far can a person really jump? Odds on breaking something as I hit the ground? What are the odds I would land on my head? Maybe I won't jump. I have been on a roof before, that wasn't too scary maybe I could jump. What if Jessica fell off the roof? She would be hurt for sure. Next time she is going up there I will fight her down so she doesn't fall. If she fell I couldn't live if she was dead or really badly hurt. Oh no I am like a mom with a baby....but that's ok right? I mean it is my sister, but at what point is it not ok to say that? What relation would I have to be to not care too much if someone got hurt? Am I going to hell? I am sceptical of what someone said at church, does that make me bad? Is the devil as bad as the movies say? Will he really make my head spin round? How could that possibly happen, the exocist? Am I too sceptical? At what degree are movies real? Why should I be afraid of movies they probably don't happen. What do I have to do tomorrow? I should have done it all today, I had lots of time. Did I forget to tape that show? I totally forgot to tell Kyle that story, will I remember it tomorrow? Should I clean up around here and throw out some junk? Will my kids want my old toys? Maybe I should just throw them out, but then I have nothing how is that fair? Maybe I will get a Cabbage Patch Kid for Christmas this year from Kyle. What can I put on my Christmas list? How much IS too much? Will I just know when it is enough? What would happen to me if Kyle left? I wonder what is going to happen next in the book I am reading? Should I write a book about me? It would be awesome but I am not funny anymore, what would I say? What would I say if I won an Oscar? I know that the talk show I would do first is Ellen, then I guess Oprah. Why do people like her so much? I would only talk to her because well if I didn't people wouldn't like me by the fact I didn't like her. Maybe I need more friends. I should have talked to people when I was at church. I totally wish I could go back to school now, I would rock those tests. Then I ramble facts and math equations until I can no longer stand myself and I sleep.

Mamaz thinks that I think too much. I have been told that I am in my head too often. Perhaps I am, that will be something that I ponder as I lay in bed tonight.

Getting Anxious!!!!

So as I am sure I wrote a while ago, I got the material for the new bear in the mail. Unfortunately though, summer never is my time. I hate summer for the small and simple reason of there is no time. It seems that by the time I am done markets and rested up, it is time for markets again. However it is fall now and I am officially done markets for the year (though I am still "on call" for this weekend, but I doubt I will be needed). Mamaz says that she is happy to see it over as towards the end of the season everyone could see that I was not handling everything very well and I was so easily angry and flying off the handle that it wasn't healthy. So what have we been up to since we don't have markets?? Hanging out?? Sleeping?? Just plain out nothing?? NO! It seems that there never is an end to my husband being pulled from me. Just as markets is closing the computers back home are needing more and more work. He is on the phone and chatting online all night with family needing help. So still no time for much of anything. Especially on Wednesday nights when we are both busy with Scouts and Activity Day Girls. I have been so sad lately and I am sure that the reason that I have completely lost it is because I have been without Bluetooth for 2 and a half weeks now. Mamaz says that I need to be more flexible in my life and with my sleeping abilities, since I have fallen into a pattern of snuggle bear, snuggle blanket, sleep. I have slept with Bluetooth for just under 4 years now, so he has become part of a sleeping pattern/habit. So now getting to the anxious part as this seems to be getting long and not to the point. Last Tuesday we found that we were free for the first time in forever so we started the new bear. It took Kyle that first night to cut out most of the pieces, then he finished that the next night before Scouts. Thursday he started sewing what he could. Friday he started sewing the paws but they were slow going and not turning out right at all. So after a weekend of thinking about it I started sewing the paws (they have to be done by hand which is what I am better at, Kyle is better at machine sewing). So it has now been a week since we started and all we have done is 1 leg, but I have just 1 more paw to sew at which point the rest of the bear can be sewn together. Kyle said by the end of this weekend he will have it done for me. However he has also decided that it is too long of a process when there is no bear for me to sleep with, so we will be buying materials for other bears and start making them slowly after Christmas. I am excited about this, so I have already planned it all out.

So the first bear is Bluetooth (male, 4years), then Pentium/Penny (female,1), and the new bear ATi (female). These bears are all connected, Bluetooth was the first so he is all blue, I tried to tie in his blue material while making Pentium who is pink with a blue nose. Now ATi, she is purple with pink and blue bows in her ears. The next bear's name is Port. He will be green, with a purple vest and blue and pink buttons. After that I am not sure, the other colors in this material are Red and Yellow. I don't like either of them so I don't know if I will continue my bears. Though I did tell Kyle I will be needing the extra large casket when I die to fit in all the bears I will have.

All the material ironed out.

All the material laid out with the pattern, ready to cut.

The Legendary Wife

Yes, now I know you have all heard legend of a wife that shall come to rule them all, and she shall be of legendary proportions. She shall answer to Awesome, The Best, and Even Awesomer. She shall rule with gentleness and goodness and total humbleness. She shall serve and love her husband for all eternity, and those husbands that she didn't choose to be hers shall be sad and shall only wish for such greatness. She shall rise early and go out in the cold, and scrape the ice off the car, after that legendary ice storm that had kept her chosen husband up all night. Yes, you never thought that she should come in your time but she has and her name is ME. Yes I am THAT great. Oh man I am so humble....you just wish you could be as humble as me....

Ok so point being I am awesome and not to stomp on anyone else, but yeah I am the legendary awesome amazing super cool awesomer wife. I have decided that I shall get a TV as big as I can. I am currently looking at a 65" LCD, but I could go bigger should it cross Kyle's little mind that it needs to be bigger. Also you can't just have something that awesome without being awesomer. I am even throwing in a blu ray player, hey why not, right? Then the super cool part. All 3 Pirates of the Caribbean movies (Kyle's favorites). Yeah I know what you are thinking....and no it is not illegal to be this awesome amazing super cool awesomer, but it is super super hard.

Ok so I might only make myself laugh, but that was so fun to write. And yes that is all true I am indeed going to buy that for Kyle. He is as excited as a 5 year old boy on Christmas, or a newly married man on his wedding night......ohhhhh yeah that excited. I am SO giving. I need to stop writing as it is just going down hill and I shall end up making more fart bubbles in my sensitivity.

Sewing Project Updates *contains Christmas present pictures*

So I haven't slept well since having to shelve Bluetooth, so when the material for the new bear came in the mail Kyle started on cutting right away as to get material turned into a bear as soon as possible. I am starting to get really excited about having a new bear. We couldn't find the material that we had previously bought at Fabricland so ordered some much more expensive material from ebay, Kyle said it was worth it since I wanted only a certain material so that all the bears would match. He wasn't very happy when he seen the same material at Joanns across the river for alot less, but he said there was no way of knowing that they had the material I wanted, but then I made him more angry by saying that I knew. I wasn't even kidding, I knew they had that material because once I seen it I remembered a previous trip to Joanns in which I seen the material and said to Kyle we will need to come here to buy some since I will need a new bear soon. So armed with the knowledge that they sell that material Kyle is now going over there on their big sale day and buying some of all the colors I want so that when the time comes I will have material on hand for a new bear. So while Kyle is busy with this project I am still trying my best to know exactly what I want for the girls quilts and my parents pj pants. I am almost all done the planning stage, however I am having a hard time with the quilt my sister ordered. She wants it to match her bedding, so green, blue, and brown. Do you know how hard it is to get a good patterned material that follows those colors?!?!?! I found one, Jungle Babies, I love it so cute and matching (Sylvia had bought some last year and I fell in love with the pattern). However upon showing Jess the plans she said she didn't like the Jungle Babies, so back to the drawing board for me. I will post the plans that I have so far, including the not loved Jungle Babies.

Jessica's unloved Jungle Babies

Sarah's Moon and Stars

Kaleigh's Simpsons